There have been multiple times in my life when I considered starting a blog. I particularly remember two specific situations. The first one was during my gap year after I finished High School when I was as carefree and independent as I’ve never been in my whole life. That was four long years ago. The second time was during my first semester of university when things didn’t go well at all. Both times, I had it all planned out in my head and even wrote lists of topics I’d like to write about.
Nevertheless, I never actually started blogging.
The reason that was holding me back for such a long time was a mixture of ‘there are already so many bloggers out there’, ‘I’m not really good at writing’, ‘my life isn’t interesting enough’ and ‘isn’t it embarrassing to start a blog without an audience?’. The last aspect was probably the main reason. Meanwhile, I’ve come to the conclusion that all of this shouldn’t be about reach or success. At least not for me. It has never been my big dream to become successful at blogging, but I always thought it could be fun.
Last year I got the opportunity to participate in a blogging scholarship contest for soon-to-be study abroad students. It was hosted by the same agency at which I applied for my semester in Canada and where I ended up working right after I came back to Germany. I knew that the winners’ blogs would be integrated into the agency’s website, so the whole situation didn’t appear as scary and intimidating to me as creating my own blogger domain would’ve felt like. Therefore, I participated in the contest and eventually got the scholarship.
Yet even under these circumstances (and the fact that I got paid for it), I felt awkward sharing my texts online. Even worse for me, however, was to promote my blog on Instagram and Facebook, for which I was contractually obligated. I remember that I intentionally shared a Facebook post when it was about 3 am in Germany so that as few people as possible would be able to see it. Luckily, I got used to all of this. I had fun writing blog posts and at the same time, I got forced to reflect on my experiences abroad, which made me more appreciative of the four months I got to spend in Canada.
Now, almost nine months after I published my last blog post about my study abroad semester, I’m in the mood to write again. Why? I don’t really know. I think I miss being creative. What exactly am I gonna write about? We will see. I guess I’m gonna figure this out within the next couple of weeks. At this point, I’d also like to mention that I’m aware of the fact that my English isn’t perfect. However, I enjoy writing in English ten times more than in German, so I think I should just go for it.
The only thing that matters to me regarding this topic is that I finally start again.